I have been known to be a workaholic. Somedays I’m proud to use the term, others…well, not so much. This year being a workaholic is paying off in my business but not in my waistline. Good thing #IAMEMBRACED! (If you haven’t watched the movie, at least read my last blog about it) I am feeling more confident about myself as a woman and business owner. I am more confident in the results I can get for my clients. I am more confident about my place and my value in the world. (Check out some of my client testimonials!)
Then why is it that when I discovered that the backs of my thighs have cellulite did I panic?? Probably because I’m a woman, a personal trainer, my industry assumes that I look perfect all day all the time. I discovered the little darn bumps and humps when I was instructing a client online on calf raises and where she should feel each exercise. I was turned around. I saw a glimpse of my legs. WHOA!! It’s the first time in 3 years that I’ve had cellulite. Is it my age? Is it this new psuedo-sedentary life I have – focusing more on my busines than my body? I keep thinking about that song about a rapper wanting to feel something real…(Thanks Kendrick Lamar, I get what you were trying to say and I love it!) I feel as though maybe, just maybe our society is beginning to understand that photoshop is overused, that too much makeup makes a woman look insecure, and that self-love is the best type of love of all.
So why am I so upset at my cellulite? Why did I decide to do 2 back to back butt-kicking workouts?
Probably because my legs have always been my best feature (at least that’s what I think). My legs have always been strong. I have felt youthful wearing cute miniskirts or shorts. I am often hot in the summer time so the less cloting I can get away with the better – which was usually less to cover my legs. The realization of aging is now top of mind. It’s become a lot easier to put the pounds on than to take them off. I admit I don’t have the same energy as I had 5 years ago. I thought I was aging gracefully, until I realized that I was truly aging (I hadn’t been paying attention!). But what is the fear of aging? What do I think is going to happen?
That’s what I have to ponder until my next blog…if you have suggestions on how to get over myself – I’m all ears!!!
I hope to have more insight to post about shortly. Let’s Get Moving!
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